First Day Back to Work

So I survived the first day back to work. I was really sad to leave her but I knew she was in good hands with my parents. I only called three times to check on her although I wanted to call every hour because she's all I could think about. I left for work around 7a, then Brian watched her until my parents arrived at 9a. My parents offered to come earlier but I told them it'd be good for Brian to spend some time with her since he gets home from work late and she's always asleep then. So when I was leaving the house Brian asked me to set his alarm...I then started to laugh hysterically. My response..."You don't need your alarm set-believe me, she'll wake you up" As I went to say goodbye to Addison she was wide awake just kicking and looking around so Brian then realized that since Mommy has returned to work that there is no more sleeping in for Daddy :-)

Breakdown

So last night I had a bit of a breakdown thinking about having to return to work on Monday. I knew it would be hard to leave her but I never realized it'd be this hard. Her personality is showing more and more everyday and she's always smiling and cooing. I'm going to hate not seeing her during the work day. She also recognizes me and if someone else is holding her she stares at me or if I'm somewhere else in a room she looks around until she can see where I'm at. When she cries if someone else is holding her and I take her she stops crying so I'm having a hard time thinking that she'll be crying for me during the day and I won't be there. It just makes me so sad. I really wish I could be a stay at home mom.

Then after my hours of crying last night in the middle of the night Addison's movement monitor alarm sounded. We got the movement monitor that detects if there is no movement/breathing for 20 seconds and an alarm will sound on the crib monitor and the parent's monitor. The crib monitor alarm is to startle the baby to wake them so they start breathing. Many babies have sleep apnea which can cause them to stop breathing for short periods. We've used it since moving her to her crib last week. They say the highest risk of SIDS is in the first 6 months but especially months 2-4. So once the alarm sounded I jumped out of bed and by the time I got to the crib the alarm on the monitor by the crib had startled Addison and she was moving around. Talk about a scary situation. After that it took awhile for Brian and I to go back to sleep. Thank God for the monitor!!

New Pics

I put new pics on Snapfish from Father's Day and other photos taken in June.

http://tinyurl.com/nv2km4

Video of Addison

Addison is starting to smile and coo a lot. I can't believe how much she has changed already. Tomorrow she'll be 8 weeks!! Here is a video from this morning.

Another blog to follow

A friend of mine told me about this blog and now I can't stop reading it...of course it has a heartache of a story but I like his style of writing.

Click Here

RIP Baby Nolan 6/8/09 - 6/11/09

Early this morning little Baby Nolan passed away. I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose a child. It really makes me count my blessings.

Baby Nolan Blog

Addison Photos

Here's a link for updated Addison photos. Enjoy!!

http://tinyurl.com/ksfge5

Baby Nolan has arrived

My friend Ashley had her baby yesterday and he was born at only 26 weeks and weighing 13oz. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers. He sounds like a little fighter and that's also the meaning of his name!! You can read her blog here for updates and pictures.

More prayers needed for my friend

My friend whom is pregnant needs some more prayers and vibes. They visited the doctor today and got more bad news. Click to read her blog with updates.